These articles are geared toward my experiences in dealing with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) as well as Mild Traumatic Brain Injury (M-TBI).
The following was written originally for a military community so I will try to add as much context as possible. I have been listening to the Extortion 17 audiobook and it really hits me hard. I was on my third deployment in Afghanistan when they were shot down. 2011 was a pretty hard damn year …
Continue reading Inside the Vultures nest – Extortion 17 and the paper airplane.
Our military absolutely refused to come to the comprehension that no matter how hard we train for it, we are not fighting the grand Soviet American slugfest that had been publicly masturbated after for years and years. Not since WWII, the GREATEST FUCKING GENERATION! (News flash, no, you're not) have we fought ourselves a proper …
Once the gates have been broken there are always monsters on the edges, the fog, the water, the forest, the other side of the wall. In the Odyssey the Sirens represent the damage of war. They are ruinous, and they call to the soldiers, who are broken and drawn to dangers, blinded by ego or …
Warzone babies with war zone minds An intentional war baby mind Create a boogieman while killing the current Like waves lapping upon each other The killing wave Consumes all in its way No quarter No mercy Just war babies doing what war babies do The loss of one plants the flag up high For people …
Link to article I will say I think the summary given by Carnivale is a great jumping off point for all discussions of treatment for PTSD. If you have never experienced it, you can simply have no idea. The symptoms, as well as their progenitor, can only be experienced. PTSD is not a new article …
Continue reading VA article – San Diego VA studying CBD for PTSD treatment. (NBC article)
The first time I agreed to see a psychiatrist, after years of denial and refusal, it did not go what would be professionally unprofessional good... At all... As I sit there rattling off a story that I had only recently even pieced together myself, I thought he was listening. I mean, he asked. And he …
Continue reading Bipolar ramblings – The torment of drugs. Part I
If you have a stance that we can't leave a war because it dishonors the sacrifice that the dead soldiers have made. There can only be two options. Either you have absolutely no idea what you're talking about and you simply parrot what you are told to parrot. Or you are selfish. You want revenge. …
Continue reading Through the fog of war – Dear America, you love genocide and dead American soldiers
Trapped in an endless carnival hall of mirrors. Every mirror casts the reflection of my own demons, pains, and sorrow. I feel myself morphing like a demon. Frozen in panic and fear. Sedated in my own brain, held prisoner. Every image reflected on the glass has to be questioned, is it my own? Every step …
Part II I was born in 87’ to a Munchausen mother monster on meth. Father wanted that abortion. Or so says the meth monster. 27 years later the question posed to the father after he fucked my family over for $40,000. Thanks, James! Anyways, he says no, he didn’t. Spits out a story completely contradicting hers. …
Continue reading Through the fog. A journey through the hell of war and PTSD. Part II.
The ground was met with a thud. The gravel crushed under BT’s boots as he walked down the path. He had no idea where he was. The road was lined with thick trees. Paper Birch, he believed. He would have told someone that, or asked someone, had there been anyone to talk to. He could …
Continue reading Through the fog. A journey through the hell of war and PTSD. Part I.
